I'm a College Kid!

No, seriously, last night I wrote a paper that was due today, and completed it in two hours, and did a great job! AND I got my laundry done! AND my homework for the next class BEFORE it started! And on top of all THAT I worked out really hard and I feel great! I gotta tell ya, this is a big step! I can DO this college thing! I can! I really really can! So yeah... Just trying to get the last traces of coffee to wear off so I can sleep...

Loves to all!
Susanna

Hamlet

Who would have thought that five people could put on a full production of Hamlet? I got to see the craziest thing last night! As part of Theater, we have to write critiques on theater productions, so I plunked down some borrowed money to see Hamlet. It was fantastic! Having never been to a Shakespeare play, this was a most memorable first. It was truly amazing to see how well five actors with minimal props and no elaborate costumes could carry across multiple characters each in imaginative ways. I was actually able to understand what was going on! For the most part. With each actor playing no fewer than three roles, and a couple many more than that, there was potential for confusion. However, each actor employed small changes in expression and tone to create a completely different character. It was truly an inspiring sight to see! One did not need a set to show them what was going on or where the actors were, it was all vividly imagined, stressing just how important and tedious great acting is.
There, that's my practice critique, rough draft if you will. Now I can relax and work on more pressing homework since the critique isn't due for a month. Yeah... anyhoodles... homework calls!

Wow! I am on top of things! It's only been a few days since my last post! Ok, so maybe that just means for a short time I'm on top of keeping my friends and family updated, not necessarily on top of everything else... Like, homework for example! (Just kidding Dad! You know... haha?) So yeah, I just have to talk about another AMAZING evening! Usually when I talk about Alaska I ramble a bit, and make it funny, but also make Nome seem like a place nobody in their right mind would want to live. Well, God's been changing my mind on that, and I'm not as bitter towards the lifestyles of bush Alaska as I was. So last night I met two wonderful girls at dinner, and shared with them about Alaska, Nome, myself and previous bitternesses. We had about an hour before the night's chapel (it being Spiritual Emphasis Week), and spent the whole time talking about the sad situation. It was no longer a joke, and we all recognized the need for compassionate people in Alaska. One asked if we could pray, and we did. We prayed for Alaska, the people there, and for a compassionate spirit to awaken in me. It was the most precious time of fellowship I've ever had! I had not talked to either of these girls before, but we were able to come together in Christ, praying for a lost people, knowing that their only hope is in Christ. The chapel was also rediculously amazing! During certain songs one could look across the student body and see nothing but hands raised in praise, and in the 'Christ arose' verse of 'In Christ Alone', not an eye was dry! It was so amazing! Honestly, it can't be put into words. I mean, already, I've been rambling a good bit, but I'm sure you all will understand!
Over and off to nap time! Or not... but whatever... Laterz!

It's been wicked forever... but here I am, in college, and I am so happy right now, I just had to document the wonderful night I had. This week is Spiritual Emphasis week where chapel is every morning and night. Our speaker is Jeremy Kingsley. Great guy! Funny, yet totally able to reach the heart. I guess I should say that I've been trying to 'reach God' since I got here over three weeks ago, but I've felt like such a hypocrite. Like the person I portrayed was a good christian girl, but the me on the inside, not so much. Two completely separate classes have caused me to think about character and communicating with people, and In my mind I know that one should portray what is on the inside, and that the inside should be focused on Christ, but it took till tonight for everything to completely click. To be quite honest, I have been bitter and hateful towards a person for two years. And on top of that I've hated myself for the situations I've allowed myself to fall into. So, tonight, I joined a group of girls praying outside chapel before the service, feeling as if there was a ceiling between God and me. All through service, and in fact the whole time I've been at college, I have tried to draw near to God, but it took tonight, to address the real problem. After a wonderful message and great songs there was an alter call. I went forward and just humbled myself for the first time in a long time. God was able to show me that the barrier between us was my bitter heart towards this person and myself. I cried over the situation for the first time. Two RA's came and prayed with me, and one of them said something so encouraging, I just have to share it with whoever might happen to read this. I had been expressing that while everyone thought I was a great girl with an awesome spirit, I was indeed a hypocrite, feeling none of the joy I spread to others in my own heart. She told me that what her and others saw in me was the true me, trying to get around this small pebble of bitterness placed in the way. I just have to get that pebble out of the way, giving my bitterness to God. Yes mom, you were right, giving it to God is the only way to forgive, and I will be working on that untill I am no longer bitter towards this person, and I don't hate myself anymore. So, I guess I just need to share this, for my own purpose of accountability. I also made some friends tonight, and really felt as if I can count on the entire campus if need be, to help me out of whatever funk I find myself in. I have had an amazing day! And, I even have my World Civ homework finished more than an hour before class! Holla! God is good all the time, all the time God is good! AMEN!!!